It's been one of those busy times where I can't seem to catch my breath. Where I'm more irritated than engaged. When I'm seeing the blue sky outside, but not reveling in it. What is life? A series of irrational to-do lists that seem to multiply like dust bunnies? Or real bunnies? Is it accomplishment? Prestige? Service? Saying stuff that makes people happy? Flattery? Smiling through trials?
I don't know sometimes, but I do know Jesus said He would:
And somehow in the crazy-busy that is my life, I've neglected asking for His help.
Lord, forgive me. I'm small. Needy. Tired. World-worn. Would You bear my burdens? Would you replace my to-do-list treadmill with abundance in my heart? With the ability to truly engage with the people You've placed near? Lord, intercede for me. I don't even have the words, the poetry, the lilt of language that You have, oh Author of All Words, the Word made flesh. When my condemning voices haunt and taunt, silence them with Your holy hush. Thank You for bearing me. For shouldering my darkness. Breathe the Spirit into me afresh. Help me not to quench, but welcome, to drink deeply and long. Thank You for justifying me. That there's nothing I can do right now that will accomplish such a feat. Only You. Only Your willingly poured blood can perform such a miracle. Renew my perspective to a kingdom-minded one. Where the first are last, the master is servant, where the poor is rich. I love You Jesus. And oh, how I need You right now. Touch me. Nestle me into your heart. Sing over me. Quiet my anxiety. Oh how I love you.
Amen.
I don't know sometimes, but I do know Jesus said He would:
- take our burdens, make 'em lighter.
- give us abundant life
- hear our prayers, then intercede for us
- take care of the condemnation that haunts
- bear our sins (oh they are many)
- breathe the Spirit into our souls
- shed His blood so we could be justified completely
- give us a heavenly perspective (to live for His kingdom, not ours)
And somehow in the crazy-busy that is my life, I've neglected asking for His help.
Lord, forgive me. I'm small. Needy. Tired. World-worn. Would You bear my burdens? Would you replace my to-do-list treadmill with abundance in my heart? With the ability to truly engage with the people You've placed near? Lord, intercede for me. I don't even have the words, the poetry, the lilt of language that You have, oh Author of All Words, the Word made flesh. When my condemning voices haunt and taunt, silence them with Your holy hush. Thank You for bearing me. For shouldering my darkness. Breathe the Spirit into me afresh. Help me not to quench, but welcome, to drink deeply and long. Thank You for justifying me. That there's nothing I can do right now that will accomplish such a feat. Only You. Only Your willingly poured blood can perform such a miracle. Renew my perspective to a kingdom-minded one. Where the first are last, the master is servant, where the poor is rich. I love You Jesus. And oh, how I need You right now. Touch me. Nestle me into your heart. Sing over me. Quiet my anxiety. Oh how I love you.
Amen.
11 Comments:
Love your transparency. There are times when I feel exactly like you in your prayer. I will remember it when I do.
Oh Mary, I've been feeling this same way for several days. Thank you for putting it into words. You have such a gift. :o)
And by the way, I won a copy of Daisy Chain in the Sips and Cups Cafe Summer Giveaway. I'm so excited to read it!!
Great to hear, Joe.
That's cool you won the book, Beth!
thanks for sharing so openly...I was just reading the story of the Tower of Babel to my children this a.m. (storybook bible version) and later explained to my husband that I felt we'd been doing that with our non-profit...working, racing, building, our 'tower' and forgetting about 'relationship' - especially with our Creator. Lest he confuse our efforts, thwart our plans and topple the tower, we stopped to acknowledge him...oh how I wish it were more like breathing.
I so agree, Wendi. Lord, help us live for you like breathing. In and out with Your presence.
I'm new to your blog, Mary, but not to your writing. I just finished Daisy Chain and had to tell all my blog readers about it. It was fantastic, to say the least.
This is a lovely post and one I think so many people can relate with. I know I can. We have a relevant Jesus, but sometimes that gets blurry for me. I hope to meet you at She Speaks at the end of the month!
I know exactly how you feel. Your words speak my thoughts. Thank you,
Melinda
Great picture, Emily! Thanks for telling folks about Daisy!
Thanks My Mission. That's great to hear.I promise I'm not reading your mail.
Hi Mary,
Someone had mentioned that I should come see your blog and I am glad I did. You are an inspiration. While reading your blog I was very peaceful. I hope you have time to stop by mine. I haven't been blogging long and am anxious to meet great people, like you.
Tina
Hi Tina. Glad to hear my blog is a peaceful place!! :-)
Just read this post in your newsletter today, Mary. It was definitely something I needed to read. Yesterday was one of those dust bunny, needy days; so much to do and so many tasks left undone. I'm a completer and the more tasks left incomplete, the more frustrated I feel. I think I'm going to be reading this post a few more times before the day is done:)
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