So it's happening.
Not by osmosis, either.
I'm slowing down, deliberately.
I'm saying no.
This week wasn't easy. I still have quite a bit on my plate before it gets cleared. So I've had to work long, long days trying to attack the to do list with gusto. And boy howdy, was I tired. The kind of tired that drops me to sleep in a moment. (For an insomniac like me, this is pure surprise.)
But I'm beginning to see light. I spent some time in the dirt today, uprooting and creating. It spurred a frenzy of new yard plans in my mind, plans I committed to paper once I came inside. I'm excited to see it transformed.
I'll be honest. In the vigor of the week, I let the tasks overwhelm my attitude. At times, I felt like crying. But my dear family, and my husband who helps me grasp perspective, helped me through.
The light is beautiful tonight, a husky, waning sun that beautifies every branch in my garden. We ate from its bounty tonight, and for that I am thankful. I still find it miraculous that we can eat what we grow.
Tomorrow we will start a new page of life. Hubby will be teaching again. Alleluia! Our large church makes itself family-like and small by dividing into Life Groups (formerly known as ABFs, Adult Bible Fellowships). So he'll be teaching a Life Group the following Sunday. I'm expectant and happy. We've been in this time of healing from our last ministry endeavor over two years now. In a way, I feel like it's springtime for my soul.
So that's my little update. Not fully free from overwork, but getting there, step by step. And along the journey, I smile and praise Jesus for bringing me thus far.








8 comments:
Mary, I'm so glad you're finding it coming up springtime! :) You deserve it...and I'm glad you're slowing down. It's hard to do, but I know you'll be so glad about the results of your pruning efforts.
Awesome!
I hope and pray that everything falls into place right and you get your life to a manageable pace!
So proud of you Mary! Thanks for sharing your journey of crawling out from under the mountain of "to do's" I'll be cheering you on as you climb to the top and plant your flag in victory! Bless you!
This sounds like a beautiful time in your life. Slowing down can be stressful in itself. But, the rewards are wonderful!!
I sensed a lot of peace and contentment in this post. It must be strong in you if I can feel it. I am glad for you.
Diane
I have just discovered your blog (in that round-about way we bloggers tend to do). I am eager to read more of your posts. I realized part-way through that I had your book in my hand the other day. My blogging friend Ann said she was reading it. I couldn't buy it at the time, but I think I will go back to the book store soon.
I feel as though I'm rambling here. I think I will just quietly close for now and read a bit more.
Mary,
I am smiling with you...I know what darkness looks like and I have seen a light that is shining for the ones that are in the mist of that kind of darkness.
It has been 5 years since we have served a church. I have been praying that God would reveal a place for us at the church we are going to or that He would send us to a church that is in need.
Our church has small groups which sounds like what your husband will be leading. What made you decide to do this? We have been going to a wonderful small group and I love the people that we are with...I also love the leader and his family.
We have been ask to lead this kind of group but we don't sense Gods leading in this or are we not listening enough?
Mary how do you decide if it is God speaking to you or if we are being lead by our "feelings"?
The last church we were at we left very hurt. I am not sure if I am giving this church a chance? It has been 5 years why can't I just move forward??
Renee
Linda, I hope you enjoy the book.
Need more words: glad to hear my peace came through.
Renee, wow. That's a hard one to determine. My hunch is that once you can talk about the past ministry ick without being emotionally devastated, you're getting close to being ready.
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